From Pain to Joy (Part 7)

I guess I cannot end this contemplative series without addressing one of the wildest and weirdest addictions of all. We’ve talked extensively about the mind, body, emotions, beliefs, behaviors, the system, and our shared physical reality. We’ve stayed grounded in experiences that most of us can observe, relate to, and comprehend through our own lives.

But there are addictions that go beyond reality itself—addictions that are invisible, deprived of any shape and form. Addictions to the intangible, the unknown, and the undefined.

Perceived by some as the only true reality, and by others as purely imagined.

I honestly don’t even know how to properly name this addiction. Many concepts come to mind, all pointing to the exact same thing in essence.

Addiction to God? To Energy? To Spirit? To Soul? To Religion? To the invisible and unreal? To consciousness or the Divine? Or perhaps some other variations: angels, high vibrations, kundalini, reiki, tantra, yoga, guides, ascended masters, saints, dead relatives, forest gnomes, or other creative ideologies or belief systems.

For me, all of these fall into the same category, carrying a very similar flavor: the addiction to the Unknown, to Mystery itself.

This one is truly hilariously fun yet still immensely powerful. And it is potentially wilder than you imagine or believe it to be for now.

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There are countless people addicted to the invisible in myriad forms. You might think this addiction is the same as being addicted to the mind, but it’s not. For most, this particular experience transcends even the mind, often in profoundly unusual ways.

It taps directly into something that seems to go beyond the body, heart, and head.

Is there anything else?

If you believe there is, then no matter what you think it is, there is potential for you to become addicted to it. Even if you consider yourself a full-blown atheist, a non-believer, or anything else, you should still be aware that, for some, this is a legitimate part of their personal reality.

Some people are addicted to what they don’t know and can’t possibly validate as actual personal truth.

And that’s perfectly fine—natural even. But it remains a profoundly curious phenomenon to observe.

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When we are truly desperate, we often seek something to hold on to—some form of attachment that makes us feel connected to life. This attachment might manifest as a dependency on something material, relational, emotional, or mental.

In extreme cases, when our suffering transcends our current reality and we feel like there is nothing else we can authentically hold onto, we seek refuge in the invisible, the unknown, and the void itself.

Once you open your conscious awareness and your body to what lies beyond the mind, there’s no going back. It’s a point of no return—an integral part of your personal path of evolution and life.

Some transformation processes are truly unpredictable and irreversible.

The most powerful, creative, and magical processes emerge from the deep unknown, from chaos itself, and from the complete uncertainty of what’s next.

Real success and empowerment come only when you are willing to engage with the wild risks of the unknown mystery, consciously immersing yourself in the energy of chaos.

If you always play it safe and follow a tested path, you are not yet playing the real game of power and creation. You’re simply copying someone else’s strategy or ideology. If you can predict the outcomes of your personal experiences with absolute certainty, you are still a follower, not yet a creator.

If you already know the exact results of your actions before you take them, you are not innovating or transforming—you’re merely manufacturing someone else’s experience.

If you never innovate, transform, or create anything unknown to you personally, you are most likely walking someone else’s path—not your own.

You might be giving away your energy to satisfy the dreams of people you don’t even know, rather than fulfilling your own inner desires and pure intentions. Sometimes, you know these people well—parents, teachers, bosses, or partners—and yet you still sacrifice your destiny, personal life, and power to make them happy.

It’s possible to live your entire life outside your own personal path, detached from your inner space or authentic desires. You might live according to someone else’s selfish wishes or mindless projections. For some, this is a conscious choice; for others, it’s entirely unconscious.

Some people know they’re living someone else’s life and don’t even care to change it (for now). They may see it as a form of spiritual legacy, a karmic duty, service to God, or an ancestral responsibility.

Perhaps the risk of stepping into their own destiny, creating their own life, and reclaiming their innate power feels more terrifying than carrying someone else’s karma or hiding behind the “costumes” of others.

Some lack the courage or self-mastery to walk their own wild, risky path. So they follow those who seem secure and responsible, walking beside someone they trust or feel safe around, hoping this will eventually lead them to salvation.

But it rarely does.

The further you go, the more you realize there is absolutely no one who has walked your unique path before. No one ever could. No one can save you, help you, or even fully understand your personal adventure of discovering your own uniqueness and innate power.

There is no guide, no map, no pre-existing framework to offer you certainty.

Eventually, you will face your own unknown uncertainty. This particular “mystery” of your individual soul is as unknown to the rest of us as it is to you.

No one has ventured there before. No one knows. No one can help you in there.

You alone will take the ultimate risk of accepting your unique path of evolution, and you alone will bear full responsibility for it.

You create the perfect, unique way forward for yourself as you go.

You learn, integrate, and understand only after you’ve truly experienced and courageously walked the path of your own unique mistakes and successes.

If you’re not yet willing to step into the risky unknown of your own soul, you likely don’t yet know what authentic power or innate creativity even are.

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People who get addicted to any form of spiritual or energetic ideology from the past—or to schemes, models, or systems created by someone else—have yet to fully walk their own path. They have not reclaimed their innate powers to become authentic and conscious co-creators of our shared reality. At the core, they do not yet fully trust their own soul.

They are likely stuck in preconditioned behaviors rooted in collective limiting beliefs and the familiar boundaries of what is deemed possible or desirable. Such individuals are not in full control of their creative potential, often repeating cycles of imposed realities rather than consciously shaping their own. They lack access to their inner intuition and innate power to guide their choices.

Instead, they rely on external protection, authority, validation, and guidance. This dependency limits their access to authentic freewill and constrains their ability to transcend preconditioned beliefs.

Those truly connected to themselves are rarely “spiritual” in a conventional sense and even less likely to be religious.

While they may remain believers, deeply curious about consciousness, evolution and God—and perhaps even be wild mystics themselves—they do not revere any ideology apart from their own personal experience and embodied wisdom. They embrace the unknown, recognizing the irrelevance and incoherence of judgment in a truly unique and individualised existence.

If every person’s life is an experience no one else has lived, how can anyone judge another’s decisions or criticize their path?

Perceptions of reality vary and are often inaccurate. Judging others, or rationalizing their choices beyond your personal evolution, expends unnecessary mental energy.

Comparisons between experiences—whether as better or worse—serve no purpose. Life’s uniqueness and ephemerality render such judgments meaningless.

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Judgment imposes limits on perception and creates an inner prison.

This prison may manifest physically, emotionally, mentally, energetically, or even spiritually. At its core, judgment is resistance to change—a merciless inner critic that very often obstructs our personal growth and transformation.

Our deep-seated fears, unconscious shame, and unacknowledged desires construct the walls of our personal realities. For some, life feels like a prison; for others, it’s an expansive, magical sea of endless possibilities. The difference lies in the presence—or absence—of judgment within the psyche.

The more judgmental a person is, the more confined they feel. This mental imprisonment usually diminishes their experience of authentic freedom, both outwardly and inwardly.

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Judgment is profoundly disempowering.

At a basic human level, using judgment to criticize others may not seem catastrophic. However, when judgment extends to spiritual or energetic realms, it carries significant consequences. If you invoke the “judgment of God” to justify your actions, you assume the responsibility of divine consequences as well.

One day, the “inner God” of another might judge you with equal, if not greater, severity. If you fear being judged by others—or by God—it is likely a reflection of your own judgmental tendencies. We fear and judge what we cannot yet fully accept, forgive, or love within ourselves.

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Your judgment of anything—real or unreal, conscious or unconscious—reveals the limits of your inner freedom.

Mastery of innate power requires a capacity to remain non-judgmental. The more humanity you can unconditionally accept and love, the more you become a conscious co-creator of our shared reality. This godlike quality is not about exerting authority but embodying unconditional love and acceptance.

Reclaiming your authentic power does not grant you the right to judge or condemn others. Spiritual ego might suggest otherwise, but true self-realization arises only when judgment ceases completely.

A Simple Litmus Test.

If you find yourself judging others or anything else in our shared reality, it is a good sign that you are disconnected from your soul, spirit, or inner divinity.

Judgment limits your creative potential and encodes your destiny with unnecessary suffering and struggle.

Judgment does not make you stronger or wiser; it narrows your mind and weakens your resilience. Freedom and mastery lie in the absence of judgment—an open, expansive state that welcomes life in all its imperfections and possibilities.

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For some, addiction to the unknown manifests energetically, rooted in the quantum "science" of pure vibrations and the power of the superconscious mind.

This attachment is not tied to a specific spiritual practice or religious dogma but exists as a separate language to describe similar semi-delusions. Such individuals are neither more nor less self-deceived than those addicted to religious systems—it simply shows up differently. However, their fixation on invisible "energy" can sometimes be even more severe and convoluted than the Pope’s relationship with religion.

Some people invest more of their conscious awareness and time in manipulating invisible energy than in authentically connecting with other human beings in the tangible world. This is not about introverts who value solitude or silence within their own minds. Rather, it’s about "energetic" addicts—those who channel their mental and spiritual energy into creating etheric alternative realities in their deep imagination.

Energy is real, and like everything else, it can be manipulated in endlessly creative ways.

But many believe that acquiring a black belt in Reiki from a local new-age practitioner gives them mastery over energy, or that a year in some questionable college qualifies them to heal others. They might wave their hands in a clockwise motion over someone’s chakras while imagining a blue ray of light emanating from the "third eye of Mother Earth"—thinking they've unlocked the secrets of energy.

Often, these individuals are naïve and innocent in their understanding of energy and why it works as it does.

They believe they control energy with their minds, but more often than not, it is energy that manipulates them—cleverly and subtly. Using energy alone as a medium for healing or self-transformation is neither efficient nor sufficient for resolving deep emotional, mental, or physical issues. While energy can greatly support and enhance these processes, it is not a standalone solution.

Relying solely on energy for personal healing or to serve others can even become dangerous. It can lead to deep confusion, incoherence, and harm in the journey of self-healing or in the regenerative process of consciousness.

Energy is undeniably powerful—radically transformative, magical, and healing. But it is also potentially destructive, painful, and self-harming—particularly for those who assume they fully understand it or believe they already have ultimate control over it.

Authentic mastery of energy is directly tied to one’s humility, innocence, and unconditional responsibility in wielding it consciously.

If you are still arrogant or overly certain about your understanding of energy, your abilities, or your capacity to handle it, you are not yet in your authentic power of creation. Instead, you are either blinded by your ego or held captive by your inner fears.

True power exists in paradox—a balance between humility and invincibility, between the wholeness and the nothingness of existence.

Power resides in nonattachment yet demands an unforgiving integrity and alignment with the self. True power is the courageous vulnerability of will, the fragile certainty of pure love, and the ultimate surrender to the infinite mystery of creation.

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Pain and joy are not opposites—they are threads of the same fabric, woven into the essence of life itself.

Without one, the other loses its meaning. Pain sharpens our senses, exposing the raw edges of our existence, while joy softens those edges, reminding us that the same life that wounds us also offers healing. To deny one is to dilute the other, yet we often run from pain, fearing its depth, while chasing joy as though it were a prize to be won.

Joy is not a destination, nor is pain a punishment.

Both are signposts on the journey from fear to love, from survival to life. Fear grips tightly, pulling us into the confines of the known, whispering that safety lies in control and certainty. Love, on the other hand, invites us to release, to trust in the unpredictable beauty of interconnection, and to surrender to the messy, chaotic, and miraculous flow of life. It is in this surrender that we begin to live—not merely survive.

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Addictions, whether to substances, relationships, or even the intangible realms of energy, are often misguided attempts to bridge the gap between fear and love.

Dependence stems from a deep yearning to belong, to feel connected, and to find meaning in a world that often feels too fragmented. But addictions isolate us even further, binding us to illusions that promise freedom yet still deliver the familiar captivity of the soul.

The path out of addiction, out of the endless loops of survival and suffering, is not one of suppression or denial—it is one of authentic integration and inner healing. It begins with the recognition that the energy we manipulate, the matter we inhabit, and the information we consume are not separate entities from us. They are facets of the same truth, each reflecting the others in infinite interdependent complexity.

Energy moves through us, not as something to be controlled and manipulated but as something to be recognised and harmonized within us.

Matter grounds us, reminding us that we are part of the Earth, not apart from it. Our bodies and the nature are the same.

Information expands our awareness, yet it is wisdom—born of experience, humility, and connection—that allows us to navigate the infinite streams of data with clarity, meaning and purpose.

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Wisdom is the alchemy of embodied knowledge and unconditional love.

Wisdom is the still point where energy, matter, and information converge into coherence.

Wisdom is not found in the external pursuit of power but in the quiet, internal realization that we are already whole, already enough. True wisdom humbles us. It asks us to let go of our need to control and instead embrace the paradox of being both insignificant and infinite, both fragile and unbreakable.

To heal, to transform, to regenerate, is not to escape the cycles of life but to step fully into them. It is to see pain not as a barrier but as a portal for even more love and expansion of deep inner self.

It is to let fear become a teacher, showing us where we have disconnected from ourselves and others. It is to recognize that joy is not an escape from suffering but the light that emerges when we hold our pain with authentic compassion.

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Interconnection is not an abstract concept; it is the ultimate truth of our existence. It pulses in every breath, every heartbeat, every relationship. To live is to be in constant relationship—with ourselves, with others, and with the world around us.

When we stop viewing our relationships as separate threads and begin to see them as an intricate web, we awaken to a deeper reality: we are not isolated beings struggling to survive but interconnected nodes of a vast, living boundless system.

Survival keeps us small, locked in patterns of fear and scarcity. Life, in its fullest sense, always invites us to expand further and deeper. Life ultimately brings more abondance into our personal experiences no matter what.

Life invites us to move from competition to collaboration, from control to creativity, from the known to the unknown, from fragmentation to wholeness. And sometimes the exact opposite of it.

To truly live is to embrace the full spectrum of existence—to allow energy to flow through us without clinging, to fully honor the matter that makes us tangible, and to transform information into wisdom that serves not just the self but the whole.

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Life, in its infinite complexity, presents us with countless moments that act as a test—subtle yet decisive thresholds where truth is revealed, and when real authenticity is demanded from us.

These are not grand declarations or external validations; they are quiet, piercing intimate revelations that ask us to examine the essence of our being. Are we truly alive, or are we merely surviving? Are we anchored in love, or are we still tethered to fear?

The life whispers its questions when we least expect it:

• Can we face our pain without becoming it, hold our joy without clinging to it?

• Can we embrace the paradox of being deeply interconnected while standing in the sovereignty of our individuality?

• Can we dismantle the walls of judgment and step into the open fields of wisdom?

The same logic applies to how we engage with the building blocks of existence: energy, matter, and information. These are not mere tools for manipulation or control; they are sacred forces, woven into the fabric of our shared reality.

• Energy asks: Do we channel it with humility, responsibility, and love, or do we wield it recklessly, lost in the illusions of power, fears and desires?

• Matter asks: Do we honor unconditionally its form and function, or do we see it only as something to exploit, control or dominate?

• Information asks: Do we seek understanding with openness and curiosity, or do we cling to rigid knowledge and inner beliefs, mistaking it for inner truth and wisdom?

Each invites us to step out of the egoic pursuit of control and into a state of flow, where creation arises from alignment rather than force. It is in this alignment that knowledge matures into wisdom and wisdom blossoms into love.

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At its core, the evolution is not about achieving perfection but about remembering our wholeness. It asks:

• Have you integrated the parts of yourself that once felt fragmented?

• Can you sit in the rawness of life—its beauty and its brutality—and still remain open-hearted and open-minded?

• Do you trust the wisdom of your soul, even when the path ahead is shrouded in unpredictable mystery?

The path from fear to love, survival to life, addiction to interconnection is not a straight line; it is a spiral. It circles back on itself, revisiting old wounds and familiar patterns, not to punish us but to deepen our understanding. Each turn of the spiral invites us to choose again—to choose love over fear, joy over despair, and connection over separation.

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Life doesn’t demand that we have all the answers. It doesn’t require us to be flawless or unshakeable. What it asks of us is courage:

• The courage to say yes to life, even when it hurts.

• The courage to trust the unknown, even when it terrifies us.

• The courage to let go of what no longer serves us, even when it feels safe and familiar.

To pass this test is not to “win” at life but to live it—to truly, deeply live it. It is to step into the fullness of our humanity and divinity, to hold both pain and joy, light and shadow, and to see them not as opposites but as partners in the dance of existence.

When life asks, “Have you remembered your wholeness?” the answer is usually not found in words but in the quiet strength of your inner presence. It is in the way you hold space for yourself and others, in the way you approach the unknown with wonder rather than fear, and in the way you love without condition or expectation.

Existence and evolution are not something to fear but something to embrace—a gentle reminder that life is not asking us to be anything other than what we already are: whole, interconnected, and infinitely alive.