Fire Gathering

Fire Gathering

This is a story that happened in the magical forest somewhere between timelessness and nothingness.

The Forest is wide and deep here. We could even say endless.

We can smell the humidity of the soil and hear the silent whisper of the trees.

Somewhere in the middle, there is a wandering soul slowly walking and simply observing in stillness the beauty and the forever unfolding mystery of the Nature.

Alone. Potentiality a bit lost and confused. But somehow calm and grounded.

The life story of this soul was quite unknown. No one knew why she was wandering by herself for so long in deep dark and cold woods.

Some were saying that she was rejected from the village and abandoned by her community long time ago. Even if no one really knew why or when or even if it was actually true.

People say she was one of those types of beings that makes us deeply uncomfortable to be around. She was the ‘weak’ one. The weird one. The independent one. The unfixable one. Apparently, she was also creating confusing emotions in other beings.

She was generating the guilt, the shame, the fear and the judgment field around her. She was like a mirror for some exquisitely ugly stuff for the entire village and community. It was too much to deal with.

Maybe this is why she left and got lost in the woods by herself.

People simply didn’t want that kind of mirror around them. The clarity and transparency of those kinds of mirrors are terrifying.

There are some things that people are not ready to see or chose to not see for now. They are frightened by their own reflection. Sometimes we prefer the distorted mirrors. The more comfortable, more loving and more elevated in the frequency spectrum of light.

Untrue, illusory and narrow-minded, but at least they make as feel ‘positive' and good about ourselves.

We prefer people around us who project our perception with some filters to cover up some ugliness of who we truly are.

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This forest was magical and its community a bit strange. One of the interesting characteristics was that names of beings visiting this forest was very literal and simultaneously deeply enigmatic.

You remember the lonely wandering soul, apparently her name was Addict.

This is her story.

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Addict was walking the wood for some time now. She has explored the depth of it like very few around here. She has access to the secrets of many beings she has met around on her long and exciting journey. Even if she is mostly travelling by herself, she has developed an astonishing network of decentralized relationships with the entire Forest community.

She was embodying the paradox of interconnection with the whole and the complete separation from it.

Today was a special day.

She had a crazy idea and got very excited about it.

She wanted to create a circle and invite whoever would show up to have a ‘talk’.

She wanted to reunite the community of all kinds of beings to simple create a space where we can connect in nakedness and raw authenticity. Where we can be courageous and vulnerable enough to look at our honest image of ourselves.

Together.

What would be the best way to initiate that circle? was she thinking now. And by intuitive movement of Life, she started gathering small brunches of wood in a small pit.

Yes. A fire. This is a nice way to gather people usually. Let’s do that. - she said to herself.

As she was thinking about it, a desire to open up and ask for support filled her being.

She sent the open invitation to all for help to create a beautiful fire for her secret reunion of mysterious friends and not so friends.

The only people that showed up to help were the other ‘rejects’ from the community.

Saboteur was the first one to show up from nowhere and started gathering the woods without saying a word. Right at the same time, from various corners emerged the presence of Prostitute, Beggar, Crazy, Bully, and some other types of people that we usually don’t invite to the party or don't expect to show up first to help us create some random gathering in the middle of the night.

Addict was now filled with so many confusing but heartbreaking emotions. In a positive way.

Each one of them was silently doing everything they could to start a beautiful fire. They were all lonely and felt broken in some way. They were all deeply misunderstood and harshly judged.

But in this moment, they were sharing something invisible, something that was uniting them in a very intimate way.

They were connected by their deep pain. They felt each other in some mysterious way. They were all disconnected and alone, but somehow deeply interdependent and unconditionally accepted between each other.

All of them had a profound desire to make a big and very beautiful fire. They have not had such an occasion for so long. They all share the same need and dream Addict had.

The authentic and honest connection in a circle with others. They all wanted to be felt and seen with no filters. For whom they truly are.

But they didn’t have the energy or the resources to make a big and joyful fire. Only a very small and fragile one.

Even if it was not even close to their desires, it was already so much bigger than their original expectations. This made them satisfied enough. So, they gathered in a circle leaving many free spots around in case someone would like to show up at some point and share this space with them.

To their surprise, the first one to arrive was something undefined.

It was not a specific being. It was an Energy. It was more like a Field that a being. This density of undefined object of energy took few available seats and filled the space with a very distinguished frequency.

The quality of Nobility and Royalty was the signature of this vibration. The texture of something superior and a bit arrogant. But very loving, peaceful, and caring. It silently settled in the space with the deep acknowledgement of open-mindedness, open willingness and open-heartedness the intention of this collective fire were creating.

The moment of silence and deep attunement on very subtle levels happened. We were not all intimately connected, but we were more and more recognizing our interconnected nature of ourselves in this space. Somehow it almost felt like a gentle and warm wind of profound humility in front of the Unknown filled the entire space between us.

At that moment, many others started joining the secret forest improvised party around the fire.

Child showed up. She didn’t really come to participate, more to observe for now what is happening in here. She was kinda of sick of seeing all of the community doing stupid shit and not being able to truly listen to each other for so fucking long.

So, she was more in a vibe of: ‘You need to prove me you really get it before I believe you. I have my reasons to not completely trust the pure intentions of everyone around this fire right now. So even if it sounds lovely, I prefer to stay at a distance and just observe what is emerging here.’

Child believed in and loved miracles, but only when she sees a tangible, real and consistent results out if it.

Not in words. Not even in Energy.

In concrete Actions.

She was innocent, but not naïve.

Warrior arrived with her usual rebel attitude and a sense of: ‘what a fuck am I am doing here again? Should be in a circle? Around it? Walking anxiously from one end to the other? What a fuck is even happening right now? Why are all those beings sitting here in a very random composition around this very poorly done fire? Why are you all here? What is happening?’

Friend showed up too. When Addict felt the presence of Friend in the space, his heart was filled with sorrow and sadness. She was happy to see him, but she was also feeling deep pain in her chest related to a deep hypocrisy and capacity of betrayal she has experienced in the past with him.

She felt like Friend was always ending up by judging her, shaming her, rejecting her, betraying her and abandoning her.

Addict felt confused by the paradox of Friend character. It was supposed to be the being that is the most supporting presence no matter what and somehow Addict never felt that from Friend.

Friend was there for others, but not for people like us. The ‘rejects’ of the community.

We were allowed to only be friends among us others ‘broken’ souls. Not with everyone here. We were not good enough and too weak to be friends with Friend himself.

Friend had standards and requirements to share his gift of friendship with people like Addict.

And Addict never really understood or accepted that logic.

Enemy showed up too.

Addict had a kind of respect for him. It’s almost like the recognition that we are playing a fair game here and acknowledgement that nothing is personal, we help each other to evolve and that’s it.

We recognize the inner power of each other, and we see each other as a needed ‘spice’ to create a tasteful and coherent overall picture of reality.

Addict felt confused to be more in a ‘resonance’ and harmony with Enemy that with Friend at that moment.

The cruel honestly and clear consistent intentions of Enemy was way more reassuring and fair game for Addict that the confused paradox of selective, unstable and conditional friendship.

Wise One arrived in silence and filled the space with a sense of inaccessible but comforting wisdom. The mystery of her energy and the quality of her mastering of the unknown was inspiring the fear and the trust in everyone around.

This cannot be described. Only felt. Or not.

After a very short period of time, we were an entire community of very random characters and beings sitting or standing around the fire. It was not really a circle as Addict was imagining in her head. More like a constellation. Apparently random, but not random at all.

Each one of us was at a specific position and posture that felt right for us to be. No one was expected to be anywhere else or do anything differently.

Time stopped for an infinite second.

We all felt that something else is now joining the space. But it was a different feel this time. It was more macro.

It’s not a being. Or not even an energy. Or space.

We don’t really know how to describe this.

We felt like our entire gathering and fire was inside a cosmic Womb. We were all in an enormous bubble of unconditional Love and Space.

Mother is here.

Oh, this is what it is. Sometimes this is how we call this phenomenon. This enormous hidden space of unlimited potential of all the creation.

Boundless ocean of everything and nothing at the same time.

The Wholeness of the Void.

The Unknown, but so profoundly and knowingly felt.

Mother.

Right after, Father showed up.

He emerged from the Fire and created a beam of Light towards the Skies and under the deep Grounds. He connected the Fire to the immensity of the Universe and the vastness of the transformative and creative power of the creation herself.

The Fire instantly became big and powerful like the first builders were imaging it.

It has light up the entire space now. A sense of Joy and Peace started to slowly infuse the scent of the surroundings.

Everyone was able to see the faces around them with more clarity and more precision now. The mirrors were instantly more honest and truer for everyone in here.

But no one was resisting. It’s almost like, because we see the Truth together it’s actually way easier to truly see the real ugliness of it.

Somehow, we can all accept it in a more compassionate way.

We all see each other naked, raw, broken, vulnerable, courageous and perfect.

But because we do it together it’s actually fun and empowering for everyone.

This is not collective suffering. This is a collective ecstasy of being who we are in here and now and being seen and accepted exactly like that.

When we do this together, we see the emerging Beauty and Divinity in everything that exists beyond our Judgments. We see each other in each one of us. We feel being felt by everyone and everything and vice versa.

The arrival of Mother and Father created a very interesting sense of multidimensional coherence, holding and harmony in the space between us.

It’s like boundless containers in the emptiness of the moment between existence and time. And in a middle of all of that, there were all of us having a fire party with very interesting crew of beings in a middle of magical forest still not really knowing what is happening here.

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Many interesting things are happening simultaneously and the attunement between different beings and energies is really something else in here right now.

We can feel the authenticity, the uniqueness and the purity of each character and yet we all have access to the shared field where we are all made of the same thing.

We are all separate and sovereign, but somehow, we all deeply recognize our inherent interdependence and unbreakable interconnection with each other.

We are all Whole and One when Together.

Together is the only way we can face the Truth of whom we are in our real individuality.

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The space seems more set and the entire community of the magical forest is gathered all around like the infinite ocean of Stars on the Earth, bare feet on the humid soil with a majestic fire in the middle.

The space-time bends, the silence consumes and transforms everything instantly and what is slowly arising in the shared field of consciousness is the actual desire to hear what Addict has to say now.

She has created quite a dramatically majestic scene right here and right now, many unexpected faces have shown up, but no one seems to grasp completely what they are doing here. But the intrigue and the curiosity are present for all of us.

Before talking, Addict took a moment to breathe slowly and deeply with the entire space and everything and everyone inside of it.

It’s almost like she was sensing and sharing something already even if no one could hear the music she was playing. There were no sounds, only the silence. But this time everyone was able to actually feel the real frequency of the Silence.

Silence filled with everything. Limitless. Wild. Uncomfortable. Still. Safe.

Whole and self-explanatory.

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Even if the vibration of the entire scene was probably already more than enough for everyone to feel more deeply what this entire gathering is all about, Addict felt like she needed to talk and use her voice to embody the intention of this cocreated fire space.

And she spoke.

I have come to realize that I am inside of each one of you. And each one of you is inside of me.

I can easily access the Gifts, Powers and deep Shadows of each one of you even if I walk by myself and even if you all deny, judge and reject me.

You also all have the entirety of me (with all that it comes with) inside of each one of you.

All the time and everywhere.

We are all deeply interconnected and interdependent in this way.

You are me. I am you. You are us. We are me.

If you reject me from your village and your community, you reject and abuse a part of your own self. Of You. Of Us.

This rejected part of you comes to meet me in the deep forest. Because now I am safer space for this part of you more than you are for your own self.

The part you have rejected, shamed, judged in me, and the ‘addict’ part in you is potentially one of the most powerful ones in your and our entire system.

But now it’s with me. Not with you.

Now it's unconscious to you, but Conscious to me.

It’s an entire community of parts rejected from the actual community of beings.

Now I have power over it, over this part of you. Not You.

You think I am alone here, but I am not.

In some way, I have all of you here with me. I have an entire village of lost, forbidden, confused, rejected and abandoned parts of you.

I see clearly how each one of us matters and has a value here. I see the beauty and the ugliness of the deepest parts of each one of you with an astonishing clarity.

There is no status in here.

History also doesn’t matter in here.

There is no better or worst.

We are all amazingly fucked and beautifully majestic in here.

After all this time, we have actually learned what a real synarchy and teamwork means.

Among us, ‘rejects’ of the village, the natural evolution and emergence of Life is way more practiced way of being that the social norms and fucked principles of power dynamics between all of you.

Between us, the community of abandoned addicts, we don’t have chiefs or gurus in here. The only power we know is a distributed kind of power. Each one of us is our own leader. And the leader for our entire community. We are all separated and united simultaneously. We are all, both selfish and selfless in here.

Each one of us acts in complete freedom and power, yet in highly collaborative and coherent way with the whole and everything else around.

We have learned together how to unconditionally accept and honour each other.

We know better than no one else here the real power of interdependence and connection. We are one of the needed keys to the wholeness.

Like each one of you.

Our power is unique and has also a right and a need to exist.

But we are all ‘rejects’ from your village wandering with our quite amazing wisdom all by ourselves in the deep woods.

Lonely. Powerful. Unconscious. In Pain.

Unseen. Unfelt. Misunderstood.

You still all look for the completion, systemic coherence or wholeness and somehow in doing so, you feel like you need to ‘destroy’, get rid of or even heal something ‘unwanted’ inside of you.

Something you still judge, something you still don’t understand.

Something you know you’ll never be able to have a complete control over. It scares you.

And you prefer to be unconsciously ignorant that consciously terrified.

This is why you give these powers of yours to me. This is why I am so powerful and even omnipresent. This is why I am so fractal and interconnected with literally everything.

This is why I manifest literally the entire spectrum of emotions in you, with great intensity, and I can offer the most diverse set of experiences and teachings.

You can reject me. But you cannot kill me.

More you reject me; stronger and more powerful I grow.

The more you welcome me back, and reintegrate my wisdom in your consciousness, the more I will share with you the most exquisite taste of will power and the most inspirational capacity for multidimensional creativity and cocreation. My shadows are powerful, destructive and scary, but my gifts are definitely balancing that out.

If you have the courage to really see who I really am and how I can serve you, what I can do and the power I hold, you will understand why you are here. You will see why you miss me and why you would never be able to get rid of me.

If you welcome me back Home, you will see that I too want to help you. I want to cocreate with you.

Not against you. With you and for You.

I am part of the whole in the exact same way you all are.

If you see and feel my power truly, you will better understand and master your own power.

No matter who you are.

At this point, I don’t need you. You need me.

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The long silence that followed this unexpected monologue from one of the most silent characters of the woods was breathtaking. It was heavy and uplifting at that same time.

We all felt the warmth and nurturing of the ongoing fire, but it also felt like we received a very cold shower and the truth slap on the face and the same time.

Our individual and collective consciousness needed to sink it in and process what just happened.

We all needed to go back into that deep silence where everything exists and perfect just as it is.

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To create some change in the energy field, one of the voices asked:

Hey Addict.

Who helped you on this path?

Obviously, I don’t want to underestimate your powers, but you clearly had some support from some of us to gain so much mastery and clarity about this forest.

Who helped her, show your face to us.

Addict herself was very interested in this question.

She knew she was supported by other beings, but the origins of that support always felt uncertain and unpredictable to her. She had some doubts but was never quite sure enough where is was coming from.

Two very powerful, confident, and strong voices came through the crowd.

I helped her.

The astonishment of this collaborative duo of support was somehow perplexed even to Addict herself.

Her super team of secret helpers was composed mainly of Engineer and Mystic.

Another silence followed.

Nothing to add. This makes sense now.

This is a very wild and crazy tribe of beings working together. This explains so much now.

We can see a bit more clearly now how you played us around so hard and for so long.

‘’Mystic and Engineer team up with Addict to teach us how to love, how to listen, to feel and to accept each other. Simply wow.’’ – someone calmly stating out load.

This evening continues to be full of surprises and wtf moments for everyone in here.

Now we understand how Engineer was the determined, rational and intelligent right hand of Addict and Mystic was her sensitive, intuitive and creative left hand.

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Out of silence, another question arises in the shared field.

No one heard any sounds, but everyone received the question.

It’s almost like the Nature herself was asking in her silent but loud voice.

‘’Who is willing to help Addict now?

Who feels the call to support her on her path now?

Is there anyone who would like to collaborate with her in a real authentic and honest manner to share her gifts and powers with all of us? ‘’

Another two strong voices resonated through the entire forest.

I am and I will help her.

This time the surprise was even bigger. Addict felt instantly small.

Powerful, but small.

She was not expecting this.

No one was.

She was nicely surprised and deeply terrified by this new duo wanting to join the support crew and offering their help.

Queen was one of them and was talking first.

She deeply looked in Addict’s eyes and slowly, but firmly said.

Strengthen your spine girl.

Our crown is heavy, you need your entire spine strong and in-line to hold it.

You need to connect your Heart to your upper body up to your Stars.

You need to learn how to truly honor your own crown, not be ashamed of it.

You know already what authority and freedom means, now we are going to learn together what a Shared Power and Cocreated Authority means.

Together.

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Right after, the deep silent voice of the Wise One spread throughout the forest like an invisible, but strong smell. We don’t really know if she actually talked out load or only in our heads, but she said in her mysterious way:

I’ll help you access to the Roots.

I’ll give you the path to the resources from your ancestry, from our collective conscious and unconscious history and from the deep soil of the Unknown and the Creation herself.

I’ll align you horizontally.

I’ll connect the invisible mycelium to your Tree.

I’ll help you stabilize and embody yourself in your base and in your lower body.

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New silence.

The power and intensity of this moment were felt to the bones of each one of us.

The new trio exchanged deep and long sights with each other.

With no more words, Addict understood an additional layer of this new alliance.

Queen and Wise One actually needed her to reconcile and to communicate efficiently together.

Addict was a big dark hole in the connection between both of them.

Queen was too busy in the Stars and Wise One too lost in the deep Roots.

Addict is the bridge.

Addict is the mysterious connection in the heart of their relationship together.

Addict has access to the Field in a very unique and powerful way.

They both understood simultaneously that Addict is actually a key to their own reconciliation.

To their own capacity and ability to collaborate and cocreate together. Their access to the Humanity, humility and real authentic acceptance of what is.

Addict was the missing piece in the puzzle of wholeness and reintegration.

Addict is the one teaching us that each voice matter and each one of them needs to be heart and felt.

Addict knows that the community is something open, inclusive, compassionate and uncomfortably honest.

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No one knew what is happening now.

What are the next steps? What is the new strategy? How the village, the forest and the community will behave now.

All of this felt somehow deeply irrelevant for now.

We don’t know what’s next.

No one knows what will emerge now out of this improvised interesting gathering around the fire in the woods.

Something was shared, something was experienced, felt, understood. What will emerge is an unfolding Mystery.

For Addict. For Queen. For Wise One. For Mystic. For Engineer.

For all of them. For you. And for me.

And even for Us.

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Everyone felt intuitively that this moment was about to finish its ongoing cycle.

Instinctively everyone started reaching out for hands of their neighbors.

Organically, almost like a slow dance, the constellation of all kinds of beings stared to form a circle where everyone was holding hands in silence.

Now everyone can feel a very powerful energy connecting them all in a such a profound and deep way.

Each one of them feels themselves and deeply interconnected to everything else in the same time.

There is no power games.

Each one of them has access to the vastest ocean of love and power right now.

And, maybe for the first time they had a glimpse of what shared consciousness and unique individuality means. How it feels when they dance coherently together.

Same and different.

Whole and fragmented.

Sovereign and interdependent.

Alone and together.

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The circle slowly dissolved and disappeared.

Everyone left their own direction.

No one knows how it would be after. What would we dream tonight. How we will wake up tomorrow morning. Who are we now.

As Addict was slowly watching the last ambers losing their light in the pit of the collective fire, a small tear of bliss ran slowly on her cheek.

She also does not know what is next. And she doesn’t really care anymore.

But she feels more seen, felt and understood.

She trusts a bit more.

She knows.

That together we can.