The Dark Side of Conciousness

It's very funny how many people dedicate themselves to becoming "conscious" or "woke" these days. Some use spirituality, some psychology, some drugs, or other tools to increase their inner awareness and become the more evolved, superconscious, high-frequency being of light.

It's funny because most seem to perceive consciousness as a unicorn world of pure bliss and rainbow clouds of eternal peace and unconditional love somewhere in the invisible world of very pure frequencies. Some think that when they become fully conscious, their life will instantly have meaning, purpose, and perfect alignment with the entire Universe—complete with tea parties with Jesus himself.

Many do crazy practices and techniques to become more "conscious" and to become enlightened human beings as soon as possible. Some even believe our collective survival depends on it. Some painfully lose their own family, friends, and even entire communities for the sake of preserving their often self-made spirituality and being "in service of God."

Some even forget how to be simply human in their super-dedicated attempts to become very "woke" gods themselves.

It's funny because most people who are doing all of this have no idea what they are talking about.

They themselves are not fully awakened; they are still on the path, also seeking salvation—the magic remedy to end their suffering. They seem to think they are smarter or more evolved because they call it consciousness or spirituality instead of religion or science. But it is all the same.

We all seek the same thing.

You want to stop your suffering. And you think that becoming conscious, eating clean, and increasing your vibrational frequency will one day provide this to you. So, you cling to consciousness itself as your potential savior. But in most cases, you have no idea what you are actually asking for when you desire to be more "woke."

Consciousness is merciless.

She can be cruel and is very far from the imagined "high vibes" and rainbow unicorns chilling in the clouds of heavens.

Consciousness can shatter every single dream of yours into a million pieces. She can confuse the hell out of you and make you feel completely insignificant—even useless—in the entire universe. She can dissolve the boundaries of everything you believe reality to be.

She can transfigure your entire system of beliefs in a fraction of a second.

At some point, she will most likely make you suffer even more than unconsciousness.

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There is a huge difference between the states of "high pranic activity" and the actual awakening of higher consciousness. Prana can be easily manipulated, controlled, and played with. You can create all kinds of rainbow clouds and etheric paradises with prana.

But the real taste of consciousness is a very different game.

For many, the actual access to superconscious awareness looks more like the worst version of their personal hell. Today, there is much confusion in the world about the very thin line between "awakening" and serious mental health issues. Many people who access superconscious awareness without understanding what is happening—or what to do once fully "woke"—might literally go crazy.

If your personal belief system is not flexible enough to freely adapt to the unknown, the impossible, and the uncertain about literally anything you know to be true in this world, your mind will experience a great deal of suffering when you become fully conscious.

To be enlightened without suffering, you need to be willing to let go of all your beliefs completely.

And with this in mind, seriously, good luck to you on your path of discovering what true awakening actually means and what it feels like to experience it fully in your physical body.

Once you get there, you'll see for yourself that real consciousness will most likely make you visit hell millions of times if you resist transforming every single thought you believe to be true. Any attachment you have will be tested and passed through a multidimensional lens of your own judgments and endless perceptions.

In the space where you become fully conscious, even your relationship with your inner God will be harshly and mercilessly tested. Especially this relationship—the one with this particular God. You will see, taste, and experience the very profound dark side of God himself, in you and in each one of your bodily cells. And this is also usually very far from the astral paradise of unicorns and rainbows in your third eye.

Enlightenment is a very multidimensional and usually a very long process. It can be extremely painful, deeply terrifying, wildly confusing, and even completely devastating to the very core of your soul if approached with luck of required mindfulness.

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It is very important to understand this about consciousness.

It is not about the rigid dedication to your current system of beliefs about spirituality or the perfect discipline you apply for your super-conscious practices and endless prayers.

All of this might actually play against you at some point if your real objective is actual enlightenment.

Consciousness is about raw flexibility, uncontained curiosity, and innocent willingness to transform all of your deepest beliefs if or when required, in ways you cannot even imagine yet. It's the opposite of discipline and dedication. Consciousness is about breaking routines and cycles, not repeating them to relive the same suffering over and over again.

Instead, she creates new suffering with a new taste—yet unknown to us, unexperienced, and uncontained. She is not interested in ending suffering forever; she is interested in suffering in different, new, and more innovative or creative ways. She wants change, the foolishness of the unknown, the magic of innocence—not the absence of pain.

Very often, consciousness can make your deep inner suffering even more sophisticated, confusingly colorful, and complex. The more "superconscious" you become, the higher the chances that those you love the most will start hating or fearing you for no apparent reason.

Becoming fully "enlightened" is not a magic remedy to build healthy and nourishing relationships with others. More often than not, the more conscious you become, the harder it is to authentically connect and relate to other people. Loneliness, isolation, and a lack of resilient community are more likely to be the reality for the very "conscious" people.

They may emanate "light" into the world if they are truly conscious.

They become electric, extremely magnetic to others. Some will adore it, and some will hate it. It becomes way too easy to become the "guru" for many when you are conscious and "woke." People can even get addicted to that "light" of your consciousness without you needing to do anything special. Simply by being yourself, unapologetically, you draw others to your frequency—or push them away.

But the "woke" people rarely talk openly about the real dark side of their superconscious "light" experiences, existential confusion of the soul or the multidimensional awareness of the endless cycle of very wild suffering. But maybe they should.

Because we are experiencing a pandemic of very exotic mental health issues in this world.

Many people hurt themselves and suffer even more in their attempts to become more "conscious" or spiritually "woke." They use it as a tool to heal themselves or the world, but the healing never truly stops.

The more you transform, the more there will be left to transform. There is no end to the suffering. With time and practice, it just becomes more interesting, fun, and magical to experience. But it doesn’t really stop.

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Super-consciousness is a way to learn how to suffer wisely, deeply, and with more pleasure. It is not a free pass to eternal salvation or the etheric paradise of sacred flowers of life and self-imagined mystical deities on Earth.

Consciousness is formless and spaceless. It's about how much you can stretch your own perceptions and modify with ease your deepest beliefs. It is purely energetic and mental. There is literally zero attachment to the actual physical reality. There is no rightfulness or wrongness about anything. It is just a vibration, that's it.

A frequency could have many parameters. How wrong or how right it feels personally to you is the product of only your own and unique perception. It is this way only in your own mind. How low or how high you vibrate literally makes no difference in the big scheme of things. It actually doesn't even depend on what you eat, how you sleep, or how badly you have sinned in this life.

More and more people have sudden awakening experiences coming out of nowhere. They don't meditate that much, they don't do yoga or ayahuasca. They know literally nothing about consciousness or spirituality; they just work in a very boring office in a very usual job, and suddenly, boom, they wake up.

This is also possible, and it happens more and more often to many very random people.

Somehow, spiritual people are aware that when they play the 'consciousness games' for too long and become the real energy wizards, very weird, perplexing, and impossible things can be happening. In a way, they already expect for things to get wild; in some cases, this is exactly what they actually want and seek to experience.

But for the innocent man in the boring office who received the real wake-up call from 'God' without prior notice, this experience can very easily be misinterpreted as potentially a very serious mental health problem.

When your consciousness opens spontaneously, what you experience will be happening all at the same time—the most horrible suffering and the most beautifully profound bliss in the same instant. Terrifying and irresistible. Uncontrollable and unconventional. Impossibly unreal and yet the most real you have ever felt. It is destroying the known and creating the unknown simultaneously.

True awakening might shatter your consciousness in the most unimaginable and unpredictable ways. If this is what you seek—to be enlightened for real—you need to be fully aware of what it actually represents and how far it can bring you from your current perceptions and experienced reality.

Most people are not ready for this. Most might go crazy for real if their super-consciousness 'wakes up' too soon, in an unsafe environment, or with very toxic people around.

Some people are going through legitimate, real, and very intense spiritual processes and radical transformations of consciousness, but are considered crazy by others or by public opinion. This can be very harmful. The misunderstanding of the difference between a natural mental upgrade of capacities or deeply spiritual experiences and real mental problems is a very well-documented fact.

If every 'woke' person went to see a doctor in the psychiatric hospital in the middle of their awakening process, they would most likely be severely medicated and considered abnormal in many ways. They are just evolving and growing in their consciousness; they are not crazy. They need help to adopt and ground their new level of awareness in a coherent, compassionate and safe way with their surrounding reality.

And there are also cases of very spiritually conscious beings who think they are 'woke' and already gods in their heads, but who should probably go pay a visit to a therapist's office too from time to time. Some might actually need professional help to heal their deep emotions, profound wounds, and harmful beliefs more than praying their spiritual guides or doing the 'energy' work on their light vehicle.

They might not be very conscious, but rather, deeply and sophistically wounded themselves. They might appear ‘woke,’ but still remain delusional about some aspects of their own inner and outer experiences.

Both realities co-exist. It is important to understand this. Authentic discernment becomes exponentially important as you become more aware.

Once you truly connect to the super-consciousness for real, there is actually nothing else but you. You are truly on your own—the One, limitless, boundless, and all-powerful. You can do whatever you want, but you are alone in your game. This is the actual price you pay for the complete wake-up call.

It's a divine joke.

The universe is just laughing at you and with you. And then you slowly start to understand that consciousness is not really better or worse than unconsciousness. They are just unique. Same, same, but different. They are playing and dancing together. They can actually never be fully separated. The more powerful you think your consciousness is, the cleverer and more interesting your unconsciousness will become. They nourish and inspire each other.

Super-consciousness transcends and transforms everything you know about your current reality for real. You see it all everything everywhere all at once. This is true.

However, as soon as you wake up, you are already being wrapped in a new web of the unknown mystery—of future divine bliss and very wild, yet unfelt, suffering. Super-consciousness creates super-unconsciousness at the same time. It's the start of a new game.

It's not the end of suffering, and it is not the game over, golden age or the final liberation for real. It's just a simple restart, again and again, but each time is never the same.

The experience is always unique and more and more unpredictably profound with every cycle of transformation. Both consciousness and unconsciousness are forever expanding and growing. You decide how much you want to engage with them in your own personal game.

If you play only with the 'light,' you will remain deeply disconnected from the 'shadow' aspects of our reality. So the shadow will mercilessly play you to make you aware of itself in any possible way.

Your shadows, too, want to be part of the game. The more you disconnect from your own inner darkness, the more you jeopardize your own further evolution of consciousness.

The more your own 'light' might burn your entire life and destroy every single connection you have in this world, if you don't know how to honor your 'darkness' in the exact same way and with the same love.

You become super-conscious when you fully integrate the unconscious content of your psyche, but no one said that there is an end to the continuous creation of unconscious content. It's a forever unfolding and emerging process.

So, in reality, no matter how "woke" you become or believe yourself to be, it actually changes nothing. You will still have the same challenges; you will simply start playing different, potentially way more interesting games of Life. You will be in a different zone of the same fractal, that is it.

But your super-consciousness will be facing and playing the exact same endless games with your super-unconsciousness.

Both of those wells are endless and infinite. You can drown and get lost in both. And both will always remain a part of your personal experience one way or another, no matter what.

After every wake-up, there is a new dream that is being seeded instantly in the deepest places of the infinite void. One day, you will fall asleep again. And this new seed of the divine awareness will become your new, very mysterious and unique reality—with new joys and new suffering too.

Your new journey of wondering, your new existential endless seeking, and a renewed inner purpose slowly and magically emerging as ripe forbidden fruits, from your own imagination so cleverly hidden in deepest parts of our collective soul.

And guess what? This game never actually stops.