Fear of the System
- Kateryna Derkach
- Apr 12
- 17 min read
One of the most illogical and devastating fears many humans are struggling with is about the "system" itself. It's both fully sad and not funny at the same time.
They are terrified of being abused by a simple construct or a system... they are the actual creators of.
Are you scared of the "system" or are you actually scared of your own creations and your authentic creative potential in our shared field?
This question lies at the heart of our collective struggle—we fear what we ourselves have built, and in doing so, we deny our own power.
What if our terror of "the system" is actually inexplicable fear of our own boundless potential? When we project our fears onto external structures, we conveniently escape the profound responsibility of recognizing our role in creating them.
By making the system the villain, we absolve ourselves of the harder work: acknowledging our power to transform both ourselves and the structures we inhabit. This recognition demands we step into a level of personal responsibility that many find deeply uncomfortable.
Isn't the system there just to enable you to connect more wisely and more efficiently with more of reality? If so, wouldn't that mean that your fears about the system are more related to your terror of engaging with life itself on a deeper level?
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The more you interact with the system, the more of yourself you see. If you are still in some sort of inner war with your own self, the system will just amplify that even more. The system will bring more awareness and more power into your own triggers and make you go deeper into your own fears.
Think of how this manifests in everyday life: Someone who doubts their own worth might see rejection in every institutional interaction. A person afraid of authority might experience every policy as oppressive. The system does not create these fears—it merely reflects and magnifies what already exists within.
The system is not trying to scare you or to abuse you for nothing.
The system is literally pushing you to become more conscious of your own self. The system wants to be in a healthy relationship with you and to genuinely empower you. Because the system already knows, you depend on it and it depends on you. Both of you are engaged in a deeply intimate mutual connection that makes our reality what it is today.
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The system doesn't care if you use it to collaborate or to fight with the world around you.
The system itself doesn't have any personal morals or preferences. The system lets you create any relationship you want with whatever you desire. It's just a mechanism to connect stuff together, it's not a god or a kind mother that is supposed to be nice and taking care of you no matter what.
The system is a cocreator too. The system wants to survive, it wants to be healthy and efficient, and its deep desire is also to be in aligned service to the whole.
It's just that the "ego" of the system and the quantity of power it has access to is much bigger and more complex than yours. So, you might not fully comprehend the strategy the system uses to serve humanity right now.
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You judge it from the level of your personal perspective and experience. And yet, the system is and always was a complex sum of many various perspectives. It never had a singularized ego like yours. The system was always exactly that... The system!
It's a network. It's a web. It's a collective level intelligence. There is no center. There is no singular authority about anything. There is no favoritism. And no one is the ultimate boss of the system.
Consider how this plays out in our economic systems—no single person controls "the market," yet we often speak of it as having intentions. The internet wasn't designed by any single mind, yet it evolves with seemingly purposeful patterns. These emergent properties arise from our collective engagement, not from any central controller.
The system has completely emerging qualities based on the coherence (or incoherence) of interconnections that are part of that system. It doesn't have the same access to choice, free will, or mental distortion like an individualized consciousness would. It doesn't operate under the same rules or principles that your rational ego-centric mind makes you believe it does.
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For the system, there is no distinction between the concept of singularity and fully interconnected wholeness. If the system acts like an "ego" in your perspective, you need to understand something simple: that systemic "ego" is not at all like yours and it doesn't work the same way.
The "ego" you perceive and judge in there is of a highly collective nature. It's a level of intelligence and power that includes many beings like you. It's like a macro "ego" that includes billions of different and unique micro egos.
When you judge, reject, and condemn the system, you are actually doing all of this to our entire humanity, not just to the "elite," or perhaps "reptiles from another planet," if this is the story you believe in your head.
The system is all of us. It is made from our innate powers only.
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The system is like an open shared field of literally everything, where you are the one to decide how much power you want, why and how. Those who seem to have more power than you are just more willing to collaborate with the system, instead of fighting or judging it for the things they are the most scared about.
Look around at those who effectively navigate systems—whether educational, corporate, or governmental. Their success often comes not from fighting against these systems but from understanding how to work with them, how to speak their language while maintaining their own integrity.
They don't see the system as a threat, a villain, or pure nonsense with only the purpose to abuse people who keep it alive. They perceive the system for what it is: a powerhouse to enable them to create a reality they desire for themselves and those around them. They are not scared of the empowerment the system can provide them, because they already know that all the "shadows" they will encounter on this path are just a bunch of raw collective unprocessed fears.
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They know the system is not inherently evil and they also know that no one is controlling or purposefully manipulating the system behind the scenes.
The system is like every other being. It also has self-protection mechanisms.
Those "barriers" are mainly made of fears. If you want to have more intimacy with the system, you need to be courageous enough to know how to welcome and process the collective-level fears with authentic compassion and humility in your own psyche.
You are not terrified of the system; you are very scared of the intense fears you must learn how to transcend in order for you to take back your powers from the system in a meaningful way.
This insight is revolutionary—what appears as fear of external control is actually fear of internal potency. Every time you blame "the system" for limiting you, you're actually expressing terror at the responsibility that comes with recognizing your own creative power.
It's far easier to remain powerless against a faceless system than to acknowledge you possess the capacity within to transform your relationship with it. This realization demands a profound shift: from seeing yourself as a victim of circumstances to recognizing yourself as a participant in their creation.
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The system is mainly made of our collective fears.
We have built the system precisely for that purpose: to better hide our own insecurities and to feel more "protected" while remaining so ignorant about own creative influence and potential. We projected all our "shadows" directly into the shared system. This is how and why it became so powerful.
Consider our healthcare systems—they embody our collective fear of mortality and illness. Our legal systems contain our fears about human nature, collateral damages and injustice. Our financial and political systems hold our anxieties about scarcity, safety and worth. These are not just abstract structures but repositories of our deepest collective concerns we are not yet willing to take the real responsibility for.
The actual "power" that fuels the entire system is the pure energy of our most intense fears.
Those who know how to efficiently and safely transcend fears in their own consciousness can more easily access the resources for authentic empowerment directly from the system itself.
Those who are terrified of their own deep fears and would prefer to remain in denial will probably feel like "slaves" abused by the system, and not as responsible and powerful cocreators literally having access to an unlimited source of energy directly.
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Your personal empowerment in the world depends on how much the "system" trusts you to have access to that much power.
The people who are "following" you are not there because you are cool, smart, rich, or nice.
They are listening to you and paying you to better understand how you managed to transcend the intense fears they are still struggling with. They are after your embodied wisdom and your acting strategy, not your vibes, money, love or meaningless glory.
No one can ‘’steal’’ authentic power from another. If you feel powerless now, it means you have already given your power to something else, willingly. And now you might want it back, but you have no idea how to get it safely and nicely.
We can teach and inspire each other about how to face profound systemic fears to make our way to authentic empowerment easier, simpler, and more fun. We can empower each other to have more courage and willingness to not be scared anymore of our own powers.
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I cannot steal from the system and sell you some good quality "power" to make you magically successful, but I can show you the path of transcendence where you use your own deep fears to become whatever you desire and to create whatever you want in our shared reality.
The bigger your ambition is and the wider your dreams are, the more intense the fears you will be facing.
If you want to transform or empower your entire organization, you will be dealing with tribe-level or group-level fears. It is more than what you are used to in your own personal experience, and it is very uncomfortable for real. And this is exactly why leadership is so hard and not many are ready to become a leader. A true leader is not the one who has the power or wants more of it, it’s the one who has the most courage to deal with very terrifying fears with dignity and integrity.
If you want to change an entire community, you will most likely come face to face with some very profound ancestral trauma and "shadows." This might become very intense, confusing, and complex, especially if you try to do it by yourself. If you are alone to deal with this level of systemic fears, you are either naively crazy or a severe case of masochism.
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If you try to change something highly systemic in isolation, you are not after the real power and you are not in authentic service to your community. You are mainly after the sensations, after the adrenaline, the momentary excitement the raw fear can provide you when you play with it.
You might just be addicted to stress, not trying to empower yourself or to serve someone.
We see this in performative activism that seeks the thrill of confrontation rather than the patient work of transformation. We see it in those who loudly criticize systems without offering alternatives or doing the inner work required for authentic change.
You use the system for your own guilty pleasure, clever denial or sense of safety, not to empower yourself or others. You are more in love with your fears than with authentic power.
The irony is that many who position themselves as fighting against the system are actually avoiding their own creative potential. In refusing responsibility for co-creation, they remain in a comfortable but ultimately powerless position of critique without construction.
True transformation begins when we stop externally battling the system and start internally reconciling with our own capacity to shape it. This requires moving beyond the temporary high of rebellion into the sustained discipline of creation.
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The real difference between fear and power is responsibility.
Raw power without any real accountability is just fear in a costume of a superman that will most likely create even more fears in the entire system.
Fears that we consciously choose to become responsible for transform themselves into more power.
This transformation—from fear to power through responsibility—represents the core journey we're all invited to take.
When we experience fear of systems, we're encountering the boundary of our willingness to take responsibility. Each systemic fear points precisely to where we need to reclaim our creative power. Our anxieties about economic systems reveal where we must take financial responsibility. Our fears about political systems show where we need to engage civically. Our terrors about technological systems indicate where we must become more conscious digital citizens.
You cannot become super powerful if you are a terrified coward who runs away very fast from the most absurd fears. You might use the fear itself to manipulate others to empower you a bit for some time. But you will not be able to hold that power in you, so it will become useless for others to keep giving it to you.
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This is the essence of the "victim-savior" relational dynamic.
Victims want to have access to the energy of others (not directly from the shared system, because its too scary), but they also do not want to own the responsibility that comes with that power.
A victim will use all sorts of very creative "fears” or judgements to justify their lack of empowerment and continue asking for free energy from others. A victim is a coward-creator that has no idea how to transcend deep fears inside.
So, they ask others to do it for them while they can remain a bit longer in their victimhood land and wait for some nice "saviors" to come by and give them energy to suffer a bit less.
It's important to recognize that genuine victimization does occur through systemic injustice, historical oppression, and unequal access to resources. People face real barriers that limit their choices. Yet even within these constraints, the internal stance toward one's situation—whether of passive victimhood or creative engagement with available options—makes a profound difference.
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The beauty is that our world is full of "saviors" who are very happy about having so many naive victims around them. So, the cycle goes on in all its colors. Some would happily "help" any poor and scared victim they encounter.
Do you know why?
Why would someone help the victim to never evolve beyond their victimhood? Why would someone give their own personal energy to someone suffering even if they already know that energy will not serve any real purpose in the big scheme of things?
The savior already knows he cannot transform the victim into the responsible creator. Only the victim can consciously decide to transcend the needed fears to have access to the power of authentic creation.
The savior will just fill the energetic batteries of a victim a bit when needed, but a savior mindset or action can do absolutely nothing to genuinely help them. They will most likely become "dependent" on their savior and be even more scared of the system and their own powers.
But saviors still exist. Why?
What exactly do they gain in this transaction? Why do they like their role of a "savior" that much even if it usually creates even more distortion and pain for their victim than actual help or support?
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This is where this specific dynamic becomes even more interesting.
The savior is also a coward. Just a bit differently.
Imagine our victim is struggling with money. Money can be seen as any energy really. In short, a victim needs some kind of vibration from outside, but to simplify, let's use the money example.
They are poor and have no idea how they will survive in the future. They are scared and they openly seek empowerment or support somewhere in the form of money.
Imagine the savior is a rich person who has a lot of money that he would like to invest smartly somewhere. He is the perfect candidate to become the ‘’savior’’ in our situation.
But there is only one problem. He will most likely prefer to invest in victims who wish to stay this way and not in creators seeking true personal empowerment. Because victims don't care anymore what they give back to get that money energy they so desperately need, but creators still care about it.
Creators don’t accept help if they don’t fully understand what exactly they are paying for it themselves to their ‘’saviors’’ in return.
Savior has the power-over the victim (or sometimes vise versa), it is not the authentic power-with relational dynamic like between two sovereign beings in a coherent and meaningful connection.
You can very easily fool and manipulate a victim if you are powerful enough to be their savior. If you are a very skillful victim, you can also manage to corrupt your savior. But good luck to you on trying to use same tactics on a proper creator.
We see this pattern in many spheres: The manager who solves problems for their team rather than teaching them problem-solving skills; the parent who rescues their child from every difficulty rather than allowing them to develop resilience; the wealthy philanthropist who perpetuates dependency rather than building sustainable community capabilities.
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Creators know that everything is a transaction. Victim doesn’t always understand this.
A victim is a very easy and naive target if you seek to empower yourself without much additional effort or deeper responsibility for your own fears and personal evolution.
Why would you struggle, develop your inner courage and personal mastery further for more power, if you can just steal the energy from others who deal with fears, they have no courage to face themselves?
If I have a choice: To continue walking my challenging path, to face my own deep terrifying and unknown fears with no guarantee of success to generate more power. Or, I could steal or buy the fears of others that are not that scary to me and take freely the energy I need from them.
They become dependent on me, I am fed with their personal energy and not from the potent void of collective shadows or the system itself where people usually get authentic power from.
I can become super powerful and successful without the real struggle it demands to get there. I become wealthy mainly because others are scared, not because I authentically collaborate for the well-being of our shared system with others.
I become even more powerful, but without any additional effort or risk required for the authentic empowerment process of my own being. And my victims become even more dependent on me, because instead of using their energy to face their fears, they give it to me in exchange to be saved. So, they have the reassurance, validation and my ‘’help’’, but they don't have enough inner power anymore to change their own situation.
They will be stuck.
If I was not trying to "save" them, they would likely have enough inner resources to be self-sufficient and responsible creators themselves.
But since they gave some of their energy to me to save them (or I took it myself because I believed they need my help imposed without even their consent or explicit demand for it), they actually don't have enough inner power anymore to get out of their "victimhood" prison as easily.
So, the savior gets richer or more powerful by keeping the victim energetically dependent on them.
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How would someone behave and provide support if they wanted to genuinely help someone without playing the role of a savior?
Someone who is there for you but is not trying to "save" you is called a coach. They don't give you any fish; they take you on the boat with them and they teach you how to fish yourself if you want to keep eating.
Consider the difference in these real-world approaches:
• A savior gives money to solve an immediate financial crisis; a coach helps develop financial literacy that prevents future crises
• A savior fights your battles; a coach helps you develop the skills to fight your own
• A savior tells you what to do; a coach helps you discover what you already know
A coach doesn't validate our corrupted judgments, limiting beliefs, or harmful opinions. A coach doesn't feed or cultivate our fears even more for no reason. A coach is not interested in your personal energy; they are interested in you taking back your own powers and becoming an autonomous cocreator in our shared system.
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A coach is teaching you how to take true responsibility for your happiness, not how to have less of it by remaining a victim. A coach is happy and fulfilled when you don't need them anymore, when you outgrow what they can offer to you.
A savior wants you to keep needing them, to remain powerless so they can continue stealing your energy easily to empower themselves. A coach wants the exact opposite. A coach wants you to become a sovereign creator that takes full responsibility for your personal contribution to our shared system.
A coach doesn't want your personal energy, because they don't want to be responsible for it either. A coach is interested that every being finds its own access to unlimited potential, with all it requires, and operates directly from there with all the freedom and choice they desire.
A coach is not interested in creating a market of emotional dependence where we sell our fears to each other.
A coach is interested in cocreating a world where we all behave from a place of pure joy and abundance and not from unconscious fears, absurd validation of our limiting beliefs or energetic scarcity.
A coach becomes even more powerful and satisfied when you are not a victim anymore.
But a savior might be very angry, disappointed, and very sad the day you decide to change your role from a victim to an authentic cocreator.
A coach will be more than happy to collaborate with you even when you don't need them, especially when you don't need them. Because it would be way more interesting to experience the shared reality with you in this way, in your authentic power of creation.
A savior without a victim has no choice but to become a truly responsible creator as well and take responsibility for their own suffering, not the misery of others. And being a savior is way easier than becoming a full-scale creator.
A savior that has no access to cheap energetic food from the victimhood land anymore will probably not be very happy about it. They will probably resist.
They will probably do their best to create a bit more obedient and stupid "victims" somewhere to remain in their delusion of the cowardice-driven self-importance of a savior a bit longer.
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The system is like a very permissive, chill, and flexible mother. She likes all humans without any differentiation and she provides equal access to all of humanity to her source of unlimited power.
The only problem is that so many still don't understand that the system doesn't use money as her main currency.
The system uses fears to protect itself from those who are not yet worthy or responsible enough to access her authentic powers in the interconnected field of our shared reality.
And the main currency the system deals with to empower you further on this path is the quality of courage and degree of willingness you have in your deep heart to transform your own self. When you face and transcend your own fears, you will see how much the system always loved you and protected you until now.
The system gives you more and more power when you have the skillful capacity to hold it or share it with authentic care and wisdom.
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The system is also like a very good coach and guide to you on your path of self-realization, not a savior or a cruel bully like so many seem to believe in their heads.
When we shift our perspective from seeing the system as something to fear to recognizing it as a reflection of our collective consciousness—one that we participate in creating—we begin to reclaim our power. The system is not separate from us but an extension of us, continuously cocreated through our active participation and contribution.
True empowerment comes not from escaping systems or fighting against them, but from participating in them with awareness, responsibility, and creative intention. By facing our fears—both personal and collective—we transform our relationship with the systems we inhabit. And those transformed system has the capacity to empower all of us in more meaningful, efficient and coherent ways.
At its core, this entire exploration reveals a profound truth: what we fear is not the system but our own immense creative potential and the responsibility it entails. Every time we externalize our fears onto abstract systems, we're really avoiding the transformative recognition of our role in their creation and perpetuation.
This insight offers a radical shift in how we engage with the world. Instead of asking, "How do I protect myself from the system?" we might ask, "How do I take responsibility for what I've helped create?" Instead of "How do I fight against this oppressive structure?" perhaps "How do I bring conscious awareness to my participation in it?"
The greatest fear isn't that systems control us—it's that we have more power to shape them than we're comfortable admitting. Accepting this responsibility is terrifying precisely because it's liberating. It means we can no longer hide behind the comfortable narrative of victimhood. It means stepping into the unknown territory of conscious co-creation.
The greatest courage may be to stop projecting our fears onto abstract systems and instead recognize: We are the system. And in that recognition, we find not just responsibility, but profound freedom and power—the very potential we've been afraid to claim all along.
