Ego Game
- Kateryna Derkach
- Jul 14, 2024
- 8 min read
One of the most interesting and highly misunderstood concepts about our authentic Being is the idea of the Ego!
There is so much confusion about whether the ego is good or bad and if our evolutionary goal is to honor our egos by increasing our own self-esteem or to destroy and ultimately transcend our ego completely.
Where is the truth, and why are there so many contradictions about it in our collective field of consciousness?
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Ego is mandatory and essential to your human experience.
Your ego is potentially even more important than everything else you keep inside of it. It’s like in a living cell. A cell has a nucleus, membrane, and potentially some other stuff inside. The membrane is like the ‘ego’ of the cell. Without the membrane, the cell cannot survive. The membrane is the cell’s boundary between the exterior and interior systems.
This is what delimits the ‘closed’ and ‘independent’ system of the cell and its unique identity in the open field of awareness. Without the ability to create this boundary that enables the cell to act like a closed system and a ‘separate’ unit of sovereign awareness, life cannot be.
This is true in biology, and this is also true in molecular chemistry.
Each molecule from the periodic table has an energetic ‘ego’. In chemical bonding, we could call this: covalent atomic radii and ionic radii. It’s like an energetic membrane around the molecule; it acts like a shell or protective structure that defines key properties of substances and how it behaves with other molecules. It is the equivalent of ‘ego’ at the micro scale.
I will not yet address the characteristics and dynamics of the ego in the macro structures of our shared reality, even if it is important to already mention that every single system, no matter the scale, level of awareness, or its operating nature, has an ego.
The only difference is in how efficient and structured their egos are and how they actually contribute to the whole with the very interesting power of their own ego.
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You have more than one ego in your personal operating system.
You have a mental ego, an emotional one, a physical one, and even a spiritual one too. Anyways, it might be even more complex than this; each energetic center of your etheric body potentially has its own ego or maybe even a few of them.
Gladly, it is this way. Because if not, you could simply not exist in your current physical or energetic form. Our egos play a crucial role in our personal and collective operating systems and in the way consciousness actually works too.
The biggest spiritual lie is the notion of destroying or transcending the ‘ego’.
Egoless humility and selflessness have a very clever dark side, often serving as a disguise for hiding one's true self. We often believe we need to overpower our own ego just because we lack self-confidence and an appropriate mastery of who we truly are.
Some people, who consider themselves humble, unselfish, and devoid of ego, often possess the most inflated and messed-up egos imaginable.
The difference usually lies in how conscious or unconscious they are about the real boundaries and characteristics of their personal closed system, the malleable membrane of their unique consciousness: their ego.
People who disidentify from their ego or think the ego is not important, wrong, or should not even exist are usually the most dangerous and violent beings when you observe their behavior in the purely energetic realms of our shared coexistence.
Pretending to have no ego is actually just a simple technique to disconnect from others (and sometimes even from yourself) and hide who you truly are, where your authentic power lies, and what the real boundaries of your own self-awareness and mastery of your individual consciousness are.
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Some people feel threatened by the big and assumed ego of others. They judge, condemn, and resent those who strongly show them the real boundaries and superpowers of their egos.
When someone feels intimidated by another’s ego, it’s usually because they have unresolved issues concerning their own power and inner authority in the relationship with their personal egos.
If you feel triggered by someone’s ego, you probably just have no idea where your own ego limits are at that particular moment or how you can make it more efficient, powerful, and coherent to not react to the power of someone else anymore.
You are not triggered by their ego; you are triggered by their amazing ability to show the real scope, boundaries, and power of their own self-mastery of their ego with no fear or shame.
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We are always in a state of expansion and contraction.
This process is actually enabled by the very malleable and flexible nature of our ego. You can be in a very expanded, humbling, and diffused texture of high-vibe energy, but this does not mean you are actually humble for real or have no ego at that moment. It might also simply mean that you have a very big but empty and deeply unstructured ego that you are not even aware of.
Don’t get me wrong; in most cases, it’s actually not necessary for you to know how powerful or wide the ego of the person in front of you truly is, so usually, the best strategy is to indeed be humble with each other and pretend to have very little or no ego at all.
It usually makes our relationships between us simpler and potentially also more joyful.
But.
There are many situations in life where it is actually important for you to properly acknowledge and clearly see where the boundaries of yours and the other person’s ego truly lie.
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Power games are real, and they exist on all scales and in every realm of existence. And they can be truly very intense and potentially self-devastating.
We always engage ourselves in relational dynamics where we unconsciously try to overpower others. It’s not good or bad; it’s human, and this is where we currently are in our evolutionary process as a collective consciousness.
How big and how powerful your ego is will actually define if you survive or not in those kinds of ego battles. So, having a very clear idea of where you stand and with whom you are engaging in a power game is very important.
You need to understand that sometimes when a person shows the real boundaries and authentic powers of their immense ego to you, they might actually be doing you a life-saving service.
Because if you try to overpower someone with a bigger and more powerful ego than yours, this might severely hurt you and mess you up for a very long time.
This is one of the natural laws that should be taken very seriously: Play the power games with equals to you if you want to have fun and prefer not to suffer deeply at some point.
If you don't recognize someone's superior mastery over their ego or you are too unconscious of yours, you might start some sort of silly power game with them without even realizing it. But it’s like performing an uncontrolled fire show in front of a fireworks factory. It’s just stupid and very dangerous.
In the energetic world, their ‘ego’ will devour and destroy you before you even realize what happened if you underestimate or judge their ego in some way or if you unconsciously engage in a power dynamic with someone more powerful than you.
You will lose if you think you have no ego or if you have no conscious control or mastery over it when faced with a more sophisticated ego in a power game with someone else.
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Some are not triggered or scared of big egos. Some are actually in love and admiration of big egos. The bigger your ego is, the more consciousness and wisdom you can fit in there.
Big egos can be deeply fascinating and highly magnetizing too. It’s all about what is hiding inside your ego and what you can actually do with it in the real world and game of our shared reality.
If what you have inside your ego is a highly structured, coherent, and stable form of powerful wisdom that you have conscious mastery over, honestly, you might be the sexiest form and shape walking on Earth.
Your inner power will be self-explanatory, and you will probably not care at all about engaging in any kind of power games anymore.
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There’s a link between intimacy in relationships, pleasure, and our inner confusion about our ego or its authentic power.
The role of ego is crucial in any type of relationship. This is how your capacity to honor and showcase sincerely your ego to the world will define how much people can actually trust you.
If you lack inner clarity about your ego abilities, are not self-aware about its real boundaries, or lack conscious mastery over it, people will be scared to engage in any form of relationship with you.
They won't know the difference between when they are giving you pleasure or actually abusing you if they lack information about how different your respective egos are. It’s almost impossible for others to know how to please you if you are not crystal clear about your ego's size, structure, and power, both with yourself and others.
If the person doesn’t understand the real boundaries of your ego or the authentic desires and needs of your many multidimensional and fragmented egos, they cannot build a real level of trust and intimacy in the relationship with you.
They can't truly satisfy your desires if you are not transparent and honest about your own ego with them. Or if you don’t see and honestly acknowledge the qualities and beautiful powers and honor the ego of the other person too.
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You will always feel some kind of lack of love or deeper connection if you think true love does not require any ego.
This illusory scarcity of love exists because you have no idea how to accept, love, honor, and show your real, authentic, and potentially very messed-up ego to the rest of the world.
The funny truth is, you can’t truly be in love or satisfy your deepest desires if you dishonor or disrespect your own ego.
Your ego might be entitled, arrogant, or whatever else, but only through complete transparency and unconditional acceptance of your ego can you find, feel, and experience the frequency of real divine love and the limitless expansion of your heart.
If you judge, condemn, or criticize someone else's ego, you cannot be truly intimate with them.
If you are not okay with the properties or qualities of their ego, they cannot trust you. Without trust, they will never fully surrender.
Without real, authentic, and complete surrender, you will not be able to fully feel the other’s frequency in your nervous system. Something in you will always resist.
What resists is your own ego, which lacks personal conscious awareness, compassionate presence, and deep self-love.
Once you truly know the real boundaries of your ego and have the courage to be transparent and take responsibility for its power, your heart will have no limits and will experience the quality of divine love in every single moment.
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Integrity is a value you gain once you are honest about your ego with yourself and others.
The real frequency of self-integrity and your ability to take full responsibility for your ego opens the doors to the deepest levels of pleasure you can't even dream of or imagine possible.
You can sometimes feel the frequency of divine love in your heart and think you are an open field of pure light emanating in all directions.
But you will never be able to co-create anything real, authentic, and stable in our actual physical reality with all that light and love in your heart until you completely surrender and unconditionally accept the limits and true powers of your own ego and its authentic boundaries.
